Not only is it the start of a new year BUT a new decade! A new year comes with many expectations, goals, dreams and a renewed vigor for the following 12 months. During the 4th quarter of every year, I begin asking the Lord to give me a word the upcoming year. I usually have a word to steer me by the first of the new year.
This year is different… I don’t have a word! What do I do? I can’t believe I don’t have a word from the Lord. Is He not speaking to me? Have I gone astray? Am I out of His will and plan?
Then comes a perceived pressure of people asking you, “What’s your word for the year?” Oh boy….! However, over this past week, I’ve been having a different perspective. Perhaps, I won’t have a word for the year. Well then, that has it’s own pressures. Is something wrong me? Am I depressed? Is there something medically wrong with me? So I just happened to Google “new year’s blues.”
It’s a real thing ya’ll!
This is how the article opens, “I didn’t make as much money as I said I would. I didn’t get that promotion or switch jobs. I’m hopeless. While some people look forward to New Year’s parties and resolutions, others dread this traditional time to take stock and look back on the past year’s accomplishments – or lack thereof. If you’re mildly or moderately depressed already – or perhaps suffer from depression in winter — all this taking stock of yourself can make things worse, especially if you tell yourself you never measure up.”
Whoa! I stopped right there! I am a Groogler, that’s a Deborah-ism for one who does Googles searches on many things. I had to stop myself right there because if I ALLOW it, I will give the internet, well meaning friends with good intentions and television permission to tell me who I am, where I’m at and what my expectancy; my destiny, is going to be.
A long time ago, I had to break a lot of things in my life, rebuild and start over. So I’m not about to let the internet or any other “good intention” thing to dictate my mindset much less my life. I will not let them label me and the only way I will label myself as a child of God who has been redeemed, delivered, healed and restored for His glory…period!
Just yesterday, a good intended co-worker asked me what my word was for the new year. I told her I didn’t have one and that maybe I was just going to be quite and listen this year. She kind of looked at me a little sideways as I could see her wheels turning. Then she says very eagerly, “Bishop Bob”, will not mention names, has launched his 24 hour prophesy line and asked me if I wanted to call it. Sitting there looking at her, I felt as if time stood still. Not wanting to be rude or disrespectful to the man of God in her, I simple said no as I ever so slightly shook my head. The first thought that came to my mind is that, I have the ability to seek and hear from God. As I looked at her, this thought came to my mind… have we as the church turned the gift of the Holy Spirit into a “fortune telling” hot line to call on demand? Why would I call a number not knowing who would answer and have them speak into my life? That would be foolish. Sure, there are times, we would love for someone to give us a word from the Lord for encouragement and confirmation but this is not that time… Be very careful who you allow to speak into your life.
Don’t get me wrong, I have things in my heart that I would like to do and love to see the Lord accomplished. But maybe, I just need to be open to how the Lord wants to use me and see the plan He has begin to unfold. You see, I can get very focused. Like focused… Like tunnel vision, bull dozer, ground breaking focused that I am going to accomplish certain things and nothing is going to stop me not even my husband. …Okay, I said it… But perhaps, just maybe, I don’t need to rush headfirst into a year long study of a word and looking for everything that happens to connect to that word.
My husband and I are in a literal building season of life and maybe that is my thing this year. I have resolved within myself, that maybe this year, the only word I will have is the whole Word of God. It’s okay to just be quiet. It’s okay to watch some things unfold and to watch as God works some things out. Maybe I’ll be quiet and listen to the winds blow across the pastures and through the trees. Maybe I’ll watch the birds fly from tree to tree and then to the edge of the pond to drink. Maybe I’ll plant some trees and plants this year. Maybe I’ll ride the tractor for hours cutting the pastures and listening the what the still quiet voice is saying to me. Maybe I’ll sit with a glass of iced tea in hand and watch the sunsets. Maybe I’ll just be quiet and see God everywhere…Selah.
Don’t feel like you have a theme for the year? Haven’t established all the books you will read this year? Don’t have a vision board? BREATHE….. It’s going to be okay! Just be…